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27th March 2023
I’m scared. I’m intensely scared of losing someone. I don’t know what they think of me and I’m hoping that telling this blog and not them will trigger the universe into helping me. I’m really broken up about this person and I’m in limbo thinking about them. I want them to like me and I…
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26th March 2023
Mixed feelings. Academically it’s a strange feeling. I’m finishing the Uni year which is a rewarding feeling, however the looming titanic challenge of exams has made itself known and I am scared shitless. Assessments are the one thing I haven’t done for a whole year and it’s a huge source of stress for me. I…
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21st/22nd/23rd/24th/25th March 2023
The abundance of these posts with multiple dates is getting out of hand. In my defence I’ve been rather sick, in which I still am coughing my brains out. The days have blended together. I’ve felt extremely fatigued all week and I assume this will carry until I go home for the holiday. More and…
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20th March 2023
A confusing mess, overall. My friendship group fighting all over again, my libido fluctuating between non existent and overactive, overthinking supremely. The mental battle I’ve endured today has been nothing short of taxing on my will to carry on. I’ll be honest when I say I don’t know what to do anymore. The uncertainty continues…
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15th/16th/17th/18th/19th March 2023
My unwillingness to write a blog post for 5 days now speaks volumes. At the end of the day I lose track of things and I think of writing a post but never do. I’ve neglected people that I care about and I don’t know how I can make things right. I’ve reunited with someone…
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14th March 2023
The loneliness is getting to me. The pit in my stomach can be temporarily filled with Alcohol, movies, games, small hangouts and drugs but the filling always erodes away. Nothing is truly fulfilling and I can’t change it. Of course there’s things I can do physically, but the mental barrier is something no one could…
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13th March 2023
Today was frustration incarnate. People don’t understand what it’s like to be me, I guess that was a motivation behind writing this. The truth is I don’t know what people think of me but something I absolutely know is that I’m not lazy. A seminar leader of mine happens to believe so and expressed such…
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12th March 2023
A day of silent worry. Both of the superficial and long term variety. Of course I was worried about tomorrow being Monday and having to do my assignments but those worries are able to be overcome no problem. My real stress came from all the deep stuff. I lay there thinking about my future and…
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11th March 2023
The day started with a call from my psychiatrist. I couldn’t thank this man enough from how hard he’s worked to help me. He is an amazing man. He prescribed me with a higher dosage of sertraline and a dose of Circadin. This call put me in high spirits, I finally attended to the huge…
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10th March 2023
The loneliness is creeping in. And what’s worse is that my sleep is inhibited like mad. I thought I was having a good week but my mind is restless. My body is fast asleep yet I’m totally awake in a frenzy, trying to peel my mind away from focusing on intrusive thinking. I truly think…
Callum Slater- an insight into my depressive lifestyle 