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10th June 2023
It’s funny because I’m writing this in a club, drunk off my tits so please excuse the poor vernacular. I don’t feel very good. I feel hopeless, my lack of social skills is clear to me now and it’s going to take a little while to get over this. I feel like shit I can’t…
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1st June 2023
I’ve spent a little while sitting here and I don’t know what to do. I’m not exactly very happy. I feel completely empty, devoid of any sort of purpose, connection or motivation at all. My life seems pointless to it’s very core and nothing makes any sense. I seem to have gained control to a…
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A new beginning
This one is a little different from usual, for the express reason that I’ve put this blog off for weeks now and I can’t tell whether it was because things were getting better or worse for me. Things have slowly trickled into being extremely difficult for me. All this time and nothing to spend it…
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23rd April 2023
There are underlying problems. I feel ‘better’ sure. But I still don’t feel right. I’m super irritable, loneliness still encompasses my brain and I’m not getting any less stressed. My work sucks, I’m tired all the time and the fact I can’t play with friends because of my internet is really taking a toll on…
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22nd April 2023
I’ve giving up making this daily, which i suppose makes the admittedly shit title obsolete. I’ve been extremely lonely for the past few days/weeks and tried to fill the void with as many things as possible, with varying degrees of success. But nothing has actually had a lasting impact. But alas I keep fighting, clearly…
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17th April 2023
Second day in a row I’ve committed myself to actually writing. I’m almost impressed. Today was similar to yesterday, although sort of like the nuclear fallout of yesterdays atom bomb. I’m more just drained and melancholic rather than borderline suicidal which I’m sure is a positive. My essay is progressing nicely so I suppose my…
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16th April 2023
I’m writing in a dark time. I suppose here is where this blog comes in handy for myself. It’s not a stretch to say I have no one to turn to today. In theory I do, but in practice no one wants to hear this that won’t see it. No one is here for me…
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9th April 2023
If I included all of the dates I had missed the title would be as long as lord of the rings. My constant struggle with procrastination is a pain of mine that I need to work through. I took the initiative by making this post. I’ve been engrossed in both games and work. I have…
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29th March 2023
I missed two lectures due to sleep deprivation and I don’t think I have the strength for much more. I can’t do this anymore. Nothing makes sense to me anymore. I don’t know how to approach my academics anymore, my self esteem is in the most confusing spot it’s ever been in, I’m the loneliest…
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28th March 2023
I didn’t think you could learn a lot from one conversation. But we learn things every day I suppose. I’ve become slowly more content with the idea of being by myself without a lot of friends. As long as I have company I should be fine. Still, I feel lonely, and I can’t fix it.…
Callum Slater- an insight into my depressive lifestyle 