A confusing mess, overall. My friendship group fighting all over again, my libido fluctuating between non existent and overactive, overthinking supremely. The mental battle I’ve endured today has been nothing short of taxing on my will to carry on. I’ll be honest when I say I don’t know what to do anymore. The uncertainty continues to linger like a curse. I hope everything will be okay. I’m praying everything is okay but I’m a pessimist. Today was a vapid, soulless slog through the worst of my average day. Every task felt like it’s own ordeal that I had to trudge through. I can feel my social interactions slipping from my hands like sand and I can only watch as people leave me. I hate my life at the moment. It’s awful