The loneliness is creeping in. And what’s worse is that my sleep is inhibited like mad. I thought I was having a good week but my mind is restless. My body is fast asleep yet I’m totally awake in a frenzy, trying to peel my mind away from focusing on intrusive thinking. I truly think that I’m two people in the same body, I just think my rational and serious side can mostly ignore the other. Of course it’s objectively true that the two parts of the brain are different, the right part of the brain cannot speak for example, it’s hard to believe that all other people have the same level of personality split as I do. I hate to self diagnose which is why I’ve said nothing concrete, but there’s a tumour in my subconscious that feeds me everything I don’t want to hear. I hate it and I wish it was gone.